Orientation continues

So first day of orientation was awesome, finally gave us all a chance to actually realize what and where we are all going to be for the next 2 years. Second day...eh...well let's just say it was "pigeon pulling" day. For those of you who don't know what that is, it is killing a pigeon by cervical dislocation. In other words killing a pigeon by ripping off it's head with your bare hands. For all of you who have never heard of this...yes it is a real pigeon...yes it is alive when you do this...and yes EVERYONE in the program has to do this...at least once. Granted I really don't think anyone actually enjoys the fact that we have to do this, but some appreciate what it teaches us and why we do it.

So when it came to that time of the day suprisingly most of the class raised their hands to do it and get it over with right then and there. Me being one of them, because honestly I really never want to have to think about this situation ever again. I'd like to do it, get it over with, then put it behind me. Unfortunately I was not picked to get the chance to do it as they were short of pigeons. So now I have the image playing back in my head over and over again of watching about 20-30 pigeons get their heads pulled off by my classmates and I know that I will have to do it soon, but no idea when. It could be weeks to months, kind of frustrating but not much I can do.

On a much happier note, today all the first years get our uniforms today. I'm sure that once we all put it on the true feeling will sink in that we actually got in this program and will be able to do what most of us have hoped and dreamed to do since we were children.

First Official Day at EATM Jitters

So today is the big day! First day of orientation of EATM!! YAY! I've waited hope dand dreamed so long I can't believe this day is actually here! But ofcourse any of you who know me at all know that when it comes to trying new things I am all in but not without throwing up and having a few anxiety attacks first. However, lately I have been doing pretty well under these kind of circumstances, have pretty much deleted the anxiety attacks due to sometimes violently throwing myself into uncomfortable situations in order to overcome my irrational fears. So I am happy to say that today, yes my tummy is in knots and have already drank several doses of pepto bismal which I now have come to love I have so far had no shortness of breath, panic or anxiety attacks, or vomiting so yay for me. Seems like just a normal day to everyone else but it's pretty much a triumph for me.
So wish me luck today will be the first day of my new direction in life, on many different levels. I just hope the excitement will last and these tummy pangs will go away and the knots will unravel.

So Many Things So Little Time...

So I am starting the EATM program up at moorpark college unofficially
Aug. 11 and officiall Aug. 17th and darn it as excited as I am there is just so much I want to do before I am a slave to the zoo for 2 years. I want to go to the punch bowls, I want to go on a trip with my boyfriend, I want to get scuba certified, I want to go to Catalina, I want to go to San Diego and Big Bear and Mexico, and I want to visit my friend in Texas, and a lot more things I'm sure. However I know I should be thankful for I am so lucky that I have been anle to do so much already and so amazingly lucky to even be starting this program, it's been my dream for so long and I can't actually believe I'm going to be starting the journey to pretty much the beginning of my adult life. I know I will learn so many great things and just the fact of knowing that after this is all said and done I will be able to go and search for my dream job and be truly independent. Well wish me luck, as I'm counting down the days...

It is what it is

ADD...ADRENALINE JUNKIE..OCD..ADHD...CRAZY...SILLY @$$ Bmailto:B$*@h whatever you'd like to call me it is what it is. Yes I like to do anything and everything besides sitting at home on my butt. Yes, I get extremely frustrated when things don't go as plan hence leaving me at home on my butt. But hey that's me and I do have a problem with not sucking up every ounce of that life has to offer. Don't get me wrong I really do enjoy things such as alone time, cuddling up with a certain someone and jus falling asleep, sleeping in, etc. but I am not one to pass up oppurtunities due to lack of financial resources, being tired, being sore, being sick(depending exactly how sick I am), not "in the mood", because you know what? Everyone has said it but not everyone truly takes it to heart ... Life really is too damn short. I'm not one who deals well with regret and not one who deals well with oppurtunites missed. I'm sure everyone at one point or another looks back at something they may have had the oppurtunity to do and sighs because most likely they will never have that chance again. I insist on having as few of those sighs as possible. Money is just money you can't take it with you...there will always eventually be a time to rest... but time is the only thing we can never get back.
I guess my point is I don'twant to slow down and I don't intend to. So you should really try and keep up because there is a good chance I will outrun you.